THIRTY

I'm not the best writer, or blogger. But here it is, my 30th birthday eve. I am still feeling okay with being 30. But ask me again tomorrow. I honestly still feel like the shy, gangly, 15 year old. I often wonder who is going to show up to my house and "catch me" faking grown up life. 30 seems so real. Like for sure, I am a grown up adult. Because all those parents of the kids I used to babysit for were probably 30. And they were OLD. Even now when I call a babysitter, I still feel like I'm the one that is supposed to be the sitter.

But here I am. Finished with schooling. Got a husband, a house, 2 kids. It's me. I'm the grown up. I've accomplished all the goals I have wanted to thus far. And let's face it, birth to 10 (while fun and important) are really, really vague memories. And 11-20 is pretty much awkward and you don't really know who you are, what you believe, or want out of time. Then I (and most people) spend 21-29 finding spouses, buying houses, starting families. So now, at 30, I feel like I can really LIVE. I have my house. I have my family. We have our hobbies, jobs, etc. And since my kids *mostly* can participate in family activities, we can do stuff together.

So I'm excited. Here I am. 30. And Tim Mc Graw and Phil Vassar can sum it up much better than I ever could.
I think I’ll take a moment, celebrate my age
The ending of an era and the turning of a page
Now it’s time to focus in on where I go from here
Lord have mercy on my next thirty years

Hey my next thirty years I’m gonna have some fun
Try to forget about all the crazy things I’ve done
Maybe now I’ve conquered all my adolescent fears
And I’ll do it better in my next thirty years

My next thirty years I’m gonna settle all the scores
Cry a little less, laugh a little more
Find a world of happiness without the hate and fear
Figure out just what I’m doing here
In my next thirty years

Oh my next thirty years, I’m gonna watch my weight
Eat a few more salads and not stay up so late
Drink a little lemonade and not so many beers
Maybe I’ll remember my next thirty years

My next thirty years will be the best years of my life
Raise a little family and hang out with my wife
Spend precious moments with the ones that I hold dear
Make up for lost time here, in my next thirty years
In my next thirty years