Last Friday was my first day back at subbing. I started off wrong by going to a Grey's Anatomy premiere party at my friends house. I got home at 11:30 and was welcomed by a puddle of dog pee. I think he was mad at me, or Ryan, because I let him out twice at 4:30, so he shouldn't have needed to go. Anyway I was mad because I clean up Natalie's accidents, Drake's accidents and I was just tired! Then, I couldnt' fall asleep because I was nervous about subbing, I think it was 2:30am before I crashed.
Got up at 6 so I could shower, stop at Walgreens for some quck kid-free deal shopping. Everything was going fine until the doorbell rang at 6:35. That's never good. Drake was out running the neighborhood. I guess he dug out of the gate because he was mad at me for shoving his face in the pee the night before. There were about 30 kids at the bus stop, all high school I think...and Drake ran through them and they all split like the Red Sea and went SCREAMING. People started running out of their houses to see what was wrong. I tried to explain he is friendly and if they would call him he would come over and it would all be done. No one would help, and after about 5 minutes I left for work in tears.
Got my deals at Walgreens. Then I went to back out of my parking spot. When you do that in a minivan you are sort of on the other side of the road for a second while you pull forward and straighten out. Well someone pulls in and honk. They pull past me and keep honking. I thought ok I will roll my window down, thinking they knew me from the subdivision and wanted to say something about Drake. Instead at 6:50am I hear "Learn to stay on your side of the road you f'ing stupid b'tch!!!" Really? Who does that?
Get to work on time and go over the plans. Then during the annoucements they say the art teacher is absent and there is not a sub. Guess which class has art??? MINE. So I had to come up with an hour worth of plans to do that were not there for me. Later in the day, A FIRE DRILL. Seriously???
I really missed Natalie, but the actual part of work was ok. I just don't think I'm cut out for balancing my time like that, it was so stressful! Maybe if Ryan had not been out of town it would have been better.
However, this week I subbed on Thursday and Friday. No crises before or during or after work. But I do realize how much of a strain it is for me to work, be a mom, be a wife, be a maid...etc. There is no way I am cut out to work full time right now. I think I would have to learn how to let go of so many things. This week I was trying to keep up with work, home, friends, my 'job' on Tidewater Mommies, sewing for other people, packing lunch, laundry, cleaning. I was really overwhelemed until I realized that they days I work I have to put my SAHM duties on hold.
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Yep on the days you work you pretty much just work and have fun while you spend some time with your child when you get home. You don't get any of the other crap done. That is why I could only do part time! I like part time, though. And you've been home full time for so long, that is why it seemed so crazy for you. Miss you, Mommy Kim! Hilary
It's kind of the same thing with school, only I've taken on something extra and nothing else has been alleviated from me. :( I think we both need some hugs lol. It's really bad when you have to remind others in your life what you do for them. It might not be a paying "job" but Mommy is a 24/7, 365 gig.
Sorry you had such a rough day:(
That's what I'm worried about! Everyone keeps telling me that the worst is yet to come with sleepless nights and overwhelming responsibilities. We just can't live on Matt's income right now. Ergh.
oh you definitely have to learn to let things go if you work full time. it sucks...but it's life.
wow, what a day. I hope it gets easier to balance as you do it more.
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